animal spirit

i've always felt that the crow has been my animal spirit.

according to native american belief here is what they say about crows:

"The crow is a harbinger of change; spiritual, mental and emotional. Life, death, rebirth, transition magic, watchfulness, look for opportunities coming up, aids in ability to move spiritually and physically. They teach the power and balance of light/dark and spiritual/physical. He teaches to create and manifest things in our lives, all of life is waiting. Crow announces a newness on the horizon. Are you aware of the nuances in life? Are you listening to signs around you? Crow can give strength and show you how to maneuver in intuitions and insights."

found on: http://www.starstufs.com/animal_totems/dictionary_of_birds.htm

awww

he's mad at me....and it's kinda cute....

even though i hate it. at least i know he has feelings. and i can affect them.

i love him. that bastard.

whenever...

you go on missions....i always miss you so..
like now..
le sigh..

prayers for protection

haiku:

so far away now--

when is it that you'll return?

if i only knew.

sniffles.....

always get sad when there's an op :(

boohoo

A. Dick

Andy Dick = a. dick

how fitting- he was sooo drunk last night - he wouldn't go away!

apparently he likes tandoori chicken (and his booze!)

HA!

note to a.dick: stay home + stop drinking. 

thanks.

june 6

O-ZO-MA weekend!!!  sooo excited!!! get ready lovelies - cuz here we coooommmmeee!!!

conditions of today

cranky, hungry,  horny, sleepy, achey-

this is me today.

things we see...but still don't see

Driving thru LA yesterday, i passed the Blessed Sacrament School- engraved above two doors it had the following words: "Grant that I may Learn to love both God and Country."

As I continued to drive something didn't quite sit right with the engraving. Why God AND country?? Isn't nationalism the cause- the very root of evil -- of so many wars, hatefulness, and bigotry?? Why would the sacrament school, which should be representative of that loving, peaceful faith desire for me to love country?? 

I think the answer lies in the interests + motives of those people whom the engravings serve the most. Whose purse strings enabled the graving to occur in the first place. Ultimately, the very same who profits from the modern wars. 

They feed off negativity and hate-

just an update

loverboy

word

Life..

is good :)
<3
xoxo

guess who's bizack!

yup! :D

i miss....

my booty call!!!!!! come back from tahoe!!!!!!!

but in the meantime- check out my friend's awesome design!!



groovy huh?

nyah nyah

my life's better than your life......

"you see that.......

.....I'm going to eat it. All of it." (Zoha to Alyssa, Patriot Village GMU "trailers", 2003)

.....And i did :P

1. 2.



3.

sooo.....

horny... maybe i should become a boxer?? i could use all this pent up frustration to kick the shit out of someone...hmm... sounds fascinating!
(sorta like this guy) -->

the single-life

i need a rebound!! Attention all boys: I'm accepting applications now-

Bizarre experiences

Last night i had a dream about Marcelo- it was the complete opposite of real life in the sense that he was very affectionate and was pursuing me. It was nice, but there was a complete lack of sex!!! Just everything leading up to it. This would be the last time i would touch him. 

Other than that everything is going fantastic!! i've been very busy with photoshoots, production meetings, and trying to squeeze in some leisure time. This sat. b/w the hours of 1 pm & 4 pm I'm hiking up runyon canyon with some friends!! :P It's gotten to the point i have to schedule in time to relax and even sleep in!!! But it's good- it keeps the mind of other things- self-destructive things, and right now positivity and growth are the laws of my life.
BANG!

Expand your mind

Piri Reis map <-- perfect map of antarctica by turks from over 300 years ago-
Wikipedia claims claims first CONFIRMED sighting was by the Russians in 1820's. Check out the organizations that "confirmed" this. hmm...interesting.

Bottom line: Question everything.